Lessons from the death

There are so many books and resources of "how to" deal with grief, losses, trauma in our lives. Nothing would work EXCEPT "you" are the one who know "how to". It's so painful and words do not have the ability to describe it - the emptiness and unreal feeling, the pain in the heart and emotion.

Librarian is supposed the one who is well-educated and is a "smart" and "tough" human being. The truth is that ... it is quite the opposite. Things I learned from death:

You only want the pain goes away
You only wish that the death is only a bad dream
You only wish that you have option A not the option B
You only want to disappear
You only wish that people around you do not say, "I am so sorry for your lost."
You only want your heart gets lighter